New Years

Well, Happy New Year everyone. It's 2006 and it got off to one messed up night, isn't that fantastic? Let's see... I got drunk. Yep, drunk. Not that it's a new thing for me. It's just, the person I liked was there and when they arrived I was already so far gone that all I wanted to do was sleep. And my other friend got so pissed that the person I like was upstairs the whole night in the bathroom taking care of them while they threw up. I'm grateful they were helping my friend, but still, I couldn't help wishing that they were with me. OH. And my best friend kissed their ex. And now they believe that they might still have feelings for them. This was supposed to be one of my best years, and I was supposed to take care of myself and be more active and stuff, well today I sat at home, worked on a puzzle, and ate a LOT of food. It's not off to a good start, I've gotta say. And I'm lonlier than ever. I'm going out with my friends tomorrow, and everyone will have someone. Except me. Sigh. I wish the person I liked was going, but that's not gonna happen because they don't like me. And I keep telling and telling and telling myself this, but I continue to like them! And it's so stupid and so selfish. Anyway, yeah, new years resolutions. 1) Save money. 2) Take dogs for a walk everyday. 3) Get better grades. 4) Eat less/be more active.

God I wish I could do that.